Great end to 2014!

It’s December 30th and I’m on my way to Dallas. I got a call yesterday from American Airlines asking if I wanted a non stop flight instead of my connecting flight … no charge. Of course I would! Changed my flight and was able to leave a few hours later. I slept in a little and leisurely finished packing. Lovely. I then went to check in online and was given the option to upgrade to business class for $130. This meant that I got dinner and checked bags would be free. So really that’s like paying an extra $100 for a far more comfortable flight. Uhhhh yeah I’ll upgrade! For a close to 4 hr flight, totally worth it!

I’ve flown business class before but it’s been awhile. For any flight over an 2 hrs I think it’s worth it. You get priority boarding, and once you’re seated they will hang up your coat. The seats are far roomier which is nice. The stewardess brings you drinks (water juice etc) right away and there’s lots of room in the overhead compartments (less people per row). I just finished eating dinner, which wasn’t bad. A nice salad, veggies and roast chicken. I feel quite satisfied and didn’t fill up on crap.

It’s unfortunate that this isn’t the service provided to all patrons on the flight. This little girl was boarding and while walking past me said ‘these seats look nice’. I wanted to say ‘there’s an empty seat here why don’t you stay’. But we all know that’s an impossibility. A big part of upgrading for me was getting a decent meal. Even if it did include a soft chewy chocolate chip cookie at the end :D. This is my splurge as I’ve decided that once Jan 1 2015 is here I’m going to get on track with my eating & exercising and be my FIT HEALTHY self again!!

I am so grateful to have made it through to the end of 2014. It was a difficult year but it only got better. Hopefully 2015 will be even better and I will live to see the end of the next year. I am spending New Years with my lovely cousins (my sisters) and it will be wonderful. A year ago I was depressed and in pain. Had just had surgery and spent NYE watching tv. My parents stayed home with me instead of going to their friends’ NYE celebration. I love them and don’t know what I would have done without them, especially my mother. They are in India right now for 6 weeks on a well deserved vacation. We all deserve splurges and vacations. So if you don’t have anything planned, plan it! Go somewhere close or somewhere far but take a break even if it’s a short one. Take the time away from your busy schedule to enjoy life, to explore and appreciate all the wonderful things around us.

Wishing everyone a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Will talk to you all in 2015! 😀

Skinny Girl Diaries – The Holidays

I am stuck at 129lbs. The holidays are definitely not conducive to losing weight. In fact a lot of people seem to gain weight at this time. With all the Christmas/Holiday parties and lots of food & drink, and I don’t mean veggies and smoothies! Haha. It’s a wonder we don’t all gain 10 pounds at this festive time. BUT the focus is friends, family and enjoying ourselves with the people we love. Appreciating all that we have and giving or helping those less fortunate.

I’m putting my inner Skinny Girl on hold until the new year. This doesn’t mean that I’m going to gain weight, it just means that my focus will be being happy and healthy and maintaining my current weight instead of feeling crappy about not losing any weight. I’ve also been so busy and sick that I haven’t been able to exercise more than once a week. Yes SICK! The drug withdrawal side effects are terrible!!! I have nausea every other day which prevents me from going anywhere or doing much so of course I’m not going to be working out. Hopefully that will get better soon, I had no nausea yesterday or today so that was good! Woo Hoo!!!

Just so that we are clear being skinny is not the goal, being FIT and HEALTHY is. Skinny Girl just sounds better and it’s a term used loosely meaning FIT HEALTHY GIRL. At least that is how I see it. I’ve gained just enough weight to not be able to fit into a lot of my pants/skirts!! I have all these nice clothes that I cannot get into at the moment. It really sucks! I’m alternating between 2 pairs of jeans and a couple of skirts and the rest of the time since I’m off work, I’m in yoga pants, track pants etc. I really want to emphasize that being skinny is not what anyone’s goal should be. Yes we all want to be slim and sexy but we are all built differently and have different body sizes and shapes. I’m small boned so my healthy weight may be less than someone else’s. That does not mean that she needs to be the same weight as me. FIT and CURVY looks so much more attractive than skinny mini ski and bones. We should aim for a healthy BMI, along with a healthy weight and good amount of muscle with the right amount of body fat. Skin and bones is so not cute!! With that most women lose their breasts and/or butt. Speaking of derrières, butt implants seem to be pretty big right now … The booty that I hated as a tween seems to be to my benefit now. Funny how that works.

So to everyone, ENJOY the HOLIDAYS! Eat, drink and be healthy! Don’t go overboard but we all deserve to enjoy and give ourselves a treat. Don’t feel guilty, don’t feel bad about yourself. Be grateful for all that you have and be kind to those around you. Be especially kind to yourself.

I’m going to have a little chocolate now 😄. HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

Is PLASTIC the New Beautiful?

Before I start, I just want to say that I have insomnia. A lovely withdrawal symptom of one of the drugs I was on. I’m weaning myself off of this drug and it’s been terrible! Insomnia and nausea are the withdrawal symptoms I’m experiencing, which is brutal while being sick with the stomach flu! Oh well, it will pass eventually so moving on …

Within the Hollywood community it seems to be the norm to have had some sort of plastic surgery. I saw an old picture of Halle Berry (who I love and was already beautiful) but couldn’t believe how different she looked. You could tell it was her because certain things were the same but it was the whole Michael Jackson (who I also love) let me shrink my nose deal. Then there is Kim Kardashian who was already very pretty but lately started looking a little weird to me, as if her nose got smaller and slightly thinner. What’s up with that?! Now I get that these women are in the limelight and a big part of their fame is their beauty but how is it that old Hollywood actresses looked stunning without all that plastic surgery? Have our ideas on beauty changed? Is PLASTIC the new Beautiful??

With today’s average woman (who can afford it), it seems to be commonplace to have had breast implants, nose jobs, eyelid lifts etc. This is very sad. We have become a society so obsessed with superficial beauty that women (and some men) will go to great lengths to attain that look which they and society deem to be beautiful. Yes there are some some women with bigger breasts, some with smaller noses and some with bigger butts, but whatever each of us has, I think we all have something. The issue is that what some of us have is great intelligence or talent, instead of physical beauty. So yes some are physically more attractive than others but there are also some that are more intelligent than others. Intelligence doesn’t seem to get the same attention that physical appearance does and in some realms almost devalued. Why is there so much focus on the superficial? Maybe it’s that there are ways to change things physically but not intellectually? Hmmm I don’t know about that. While some are smarter than others I think there are a lot of people who could further their mental/intellectual capacity if they focused their energy on education and learning (I don’t necessarily mean formal education) instead of what some celeb is wearing or doing. Especially the younger generation who is part of the new “instant everything” generation. The generation that texts more, talks on the phone less, has far less social face to face interaction and is exposed to so much more of everyone online, on tv, and in magazines looking perfect. What that must do to one’s self esteem. Thank god I was born in the early 70s! Dodged a bullet there.

When women who are already beautiful feel the need to have surgery to change their appearance, what does that do for the average woman. Having average sized breasts seems to be rare in certain communities. An average sized nose is probably considered big. Looking less than perfect is not being up to par. Good lord how is the average woman supposed to manage looking perfect all the time??? Oh and she’s still supposed to feel good about herself?! Now add Breast cancer on to that. You lose your hair, eyebrows and eyelashes. Then your breasts are either distorted or completely removed and you’re left with one or no breasts. Traumatizing!!! Believe me I know, I have one Breast at the moment. I somehow managed to come out still feeling pretty good about myself. It wasn’t easy, I have quite a few battle scars but I feel emotionally stronger each day and see myself slowly getting back to who I am. This I am so grateful for.

So this whole fake plastic phenomenon … is it the women feeding into this or the men driving it, a combination of both??? I really don’t know. I do know that there are those women who do feel good about themselves and are happy with who they are. They’re confident, self assured and don’t let society define who they should be or what they should look like. Those are the women we should aspire to be. Where BRILLIANCE or BRAINS or TALENT and INNER BEAUTY is the new Beautiful!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying don’t appreciate someone’s beauty/physical appearance but our physical appearance should not become the priority in our lives. We should absolutely take care of ourselves and take pride in our appearance but not let it take over. So always LOOK YOUR BEST, DO YOUR BEST and BE THE BEST PERSON YOU.

Quote I read recently: “There is an industry making money out of making people feel inadequate.”

Skinny Girl Diaries … Flu Shortcut

It’s now been over 3 weeks since I’ve been more focused on trying to lose weight. It isn’t easy, there are so many obstacles right now. Since the 2 pounds my weight hasn’t changed. Which I’m not thrilled about but it’s fine. This past week has also not gone well because I have frozen shoulder as a result of the mastectomy. This comes with limited shoulder/arm movement and A LOT OF PAIN!! Because of this I’m now going to physiotherapy (physical therapy). At physio I do shoulder strengthening exercises and stretches that I also have to do at home. Then once I’ve done half an hour of that, the physiotherapist works on my shoulder by pushing it in directions where the range of motion is limited. He doesn’t push too far of course but nonetheless painful. All of this takes so much energy out of me! I was exhausted when I got home. Feeling exhausted means I do not want to prepare any food. Not preparing any food means that I may eat something which is not very healthy because it requires prep. My preparing meals in advance hasn’t happened yet. I’ve also had a lot going on this past week and will be busy for another week or so. And of course I now have the flu when I can least afford to be sick. Of course it’s the stomach flu so I can’t keep anything down. I’m sure once I’m over the flu I’ll have lost a couple of pounds. Feels like cheating but oh well.

I get sick so frequently now. WTF?! This is ridiculous! Is my immune system still compromised??? Just want to feel better already! Again chemo, the gift that keeps on giving.

On the flip side this is nothing compared to chemo! So I’m sure tomorrow will be a better day.

Skinny Girl Diaries … Week 2

I’ve lost a pound! Haha 1 pound doesn’t seem like much but it’s a start. I like food and with the holidays approaching it’s difficult to avoid those party appetizers and drinks. I am trying to keep it limited and since it’s now Dec 1st I have only 30 days to lose 4 more pounds. The goal is 10 pounds but I can only do this in baby steps so 5 pounds now and 5 pounds in the new year. It’s hard enough not to gain any weight over the holidays but I’m determined not to let that happen and to lose 1 pound a week.

Started by cutting down my Starbucks to 1/week and it’s the Skinny Peppermint Mocha. Ideally would be best to have NO STARBUCKS UNTIL GOAL WEIGHT IS ACHIEVED, however a girl’s gotta have a few happy indulgences and that’s one of mine!
Next I have to up my exercising. Really need to try to do 4 times a week. I will create a schedule and stick to it (or try to). It’s easier for me if I know when and what I have to do.
Last but not least my eating. So the food preparation hasn’t happened yet haha. Guess that was wishful thinking. Why is that so hard to do?! I am going to do it though even if it’s for a couple of days. Main thing is to prepare my vegetables and salads so that my snacks are healthier low calorie foods. This is not just to lose weight but to eat more plant based foods in order to stay healthy and Cancer free.

I calculated how many calories I’m supposed to eat in order to lose 1 pound per week. A great app for this is My Fitness Pal. It also calculates the calories for all your foods and any exercises you are doing. Keeping a food diary is also helping so I can see what I’m eating. This is a full time job!!

I’m now going to make my green smoothie. Spinach, mango, (non fat) yogurt , and wheatgrass! Tastes better than it sounds haha. Yummmm!