Sleepless in Toronto

Since coming back from Vegas last week I’ve been exhausted!! I came back Tuesday morning at 9am (delayed from 6am) so had no time to sleep before having a mammogram early that afternoon. The 1 hour drive in traffic to the hospital was brutal! I struggled to stay awake but no way in hell was I gonna fall asleep. Had some coffee as soon as I got to the hospital and made it back safe and sound. The mammogram of my right breast was not pleasant but after chemo, surgery and radiation it all feels easy. I came home and slept for several hours. Got up ate and went back to sleep.

The next 2 days I had to work. Again brutal!! I had to have more than one coffee each day. I’m trying to have no coffee so having to up it to 2 cups when I usually have 1 green tea is not a good thing.

Friday morning I went to my Rehab program, came home and slept for a couple of hours. Sooo happy that I didn’t have to get up early the next morning. Finally! Well I slept for 14 hours!! Who knew that was even possible. The crazy thing is that I was still a little tired a few hours after getting up. The fatigue after treatment is ridiculous. That night I slept for 10 hours and again was tired after being up for 5 or 6 hours. Last night I slept for 9 hours and of course 5 hours later was tired again. I did manage to go get some groceries. Came home and didn’t do much, I felt tired. It’s like exerting myself for a week is requiring a week to recover. Which means I’ll be extra tired until Friday. I’m working tomorrow so that’s just setting me back even more.

I should be asleep now since I’ve been tired for hours but I couldn’t sleep. How frustrating is that?! Exhausted but can’t sleep. Sleeping for 14 hours but still tired. What the hell?! SIGH … The fatigue makes it hard to have a normal life. I have to plan a lot more and yet a lot less gets done. I have to push myself to do everyday things. I sleep so much but yet I’m still tired most of the time. It can be really frustrating to not be able to do all the things you want to do but I’ve just accepted it. I am trying to exercise and eat healthy so that I can slowly get my energy back. I was told that on average it takes two years to get back to normal energy levels. Another year and a half to go.

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