Run Down

I am so sick! I have a fever that won’t go down and it’s been there all day. I feel horrible and have been in bed all day. I think it’s because I’m not getting the rest and sleep that I need. I started work 3 weeks ago and have been working 2 days a week, half days. This week it goes up to 6 hours/day (still 2 days) but I had to call in sick for tomorrow. I’m burning up. As happy as I am to be back at work part time and have some sense of normalcy I feel that I may have gone back too soon. I’m only 4 months post treatment and still have a lot of fatigue and need a lot of rest and sleep. Which clearly I didn’t get this past week.

I moved into my new place last Thursday however I still haven’t slept there. Nothing is set up and things are barely unpacked. We did go over and do a bit of unpacking but I was so exhausted from lack of sleep that I started feeling physically sick. We did a bit and then went back to my moms after which I took a 4 hour nap. This really sucks! I want to be in my new place and set everything up, buy some new furniture and just enjoy my new space. I love decorating so doing all that is fun for me! Hopefully I’ll be sleeping there in a couple of days.

I think I over exerted myself and didn’t get enough rest or sleep which is why I’m now very sick. I’ve actually been sick since I went back to work. First it was a fever then cold/flu and really bad cough. As soon as the cough subsided I got sick again with a fever. Ugh 😦 With so much going on and feeling so exhausted there’s no way I can increase my hours at this time. Which are set to increase in 2 weeks. The disability case manager actually misled me into thinking that I’d be returning part time, NOT part time to full time in 8-12 weeks!! And then there’s my oncologist who without any discussion with me said that I’d be fine to work full time after 4 weeks of part time. Are you kidding me?! She is no longer my oncologist, I requested a change and will be seeing someone else soon. I’ve had several issues with her and this was just the last straw. Anyone I’ve spoken to in my support group etc has said that they think I went back too soon. They all have returned to work full time after 12-24 months or plan to do so. That seems to be the average recovery time for energy levels to return to normal. I’m going to have to address this on Thursday when I’m back in the office. I’m not jeopardizing my health and my recovery for work.

There are also still workshops, rehab, and support groups I’m attending. Now I’ll also be on my own which will be more tiring. The disability group at work is very aggressive with regards to me returning full time. I’m also going to state in my email to them that I was not clearly given the correct information. Hopefully things will be resolved sooner than later. Don’t need this additional stress.

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