Last week after my support group at the hospital I went to the medical garment fitting shop. This was the day I was getting my prosthesis. I was fine with it. I know it’s temporary and I’ve also had enough time to mentally be prepared. Surgery was 6 months ago so emotionally having one breast (for now) isn’t as difficult as it was before.
I walked into the shop, where I had been before. I bought my compression sleeve there. I have not had Lymphedema but I was flying and got it as a preventative measure. The lady helping me showed me a few of their prosthesis … Some were silicone and others a lighter material. I thought to myself ‘I’ll get the lighter foam prosthesis aka fake breast, since it’s temporary until I have the reconstruction’. The lady who had previously helped me with the sleeve wasn’t there so the other lady assisted me. She brought me a couple to try on with a few bras. She looked at me and said are you an A-cup? I was almost offended! I said no I’m a 32C or 34B depending on the bra. Do my breasts look that small??? Guess I’ll be getting bigger implants than I thought! Haha.
While trying them on she said to me that my scar looked great and asked who my surgeon was. That caught me off guard, getting a sort of compliment on my scar! Lol. I asked what other people’s scars looked like and she said ‘you don’t want to know what we see in here’. Well that made me feel good that my surgery went well and scar looked good but also bad thinking about what other women have to deal with. I will definitely be using the same surgeon for next surgery. Back to the shopping … We put in an expensive silicone prosthesis and it seemed ok so I took it. Got home and tried it on again and realized it was slightly too big. Ugh! Now I’d have to go exchange it.
Went back today and tried on a few others. There are a few different kinds. I wanted to find something that felt comfortable and looked like the other side. After trying some spongy foam ones and another one I ended up back to the brand I had originally bought, but one size smaller. Looked perfect!
I left it on and felt so much better with two breasts (even if one wasn’t real). Less self conscious about the folded material in my bra moving around and maybe giving my breast a distorted look. With thinner summer clothing it’s been harder to make things look perfect. But the prosthesis has done the job! With the prosthesis the bras aren’t the demi lower cut bras I’m used to wearing so not sure how I’ll be able to wear certain clothes … I’ll find a way 😉