I forgot to mention my CT results came out normal, everything looks clear. The only thing is that there is no way to know for sure but as far as they can see the cancer is gone!!! I’m going to think positive and do whatever I need to, to stay healthy and alive!
It’s a new beginning. Better and more colourful than before! I am moving into a new place, bought a new car and re-shaved my head for new post-treatment hair. New hair new start! Yes I like nice things but the things that are truly important are not tangible. I’ve become a little more patient, a little kinder, and a little more loving or at least I’m trying to be. I think it’s also important and beneficial to remember that we are all different and to not expect everyone to think and do things the way you would. I hope to be a better person and I think when you go through something like this, that can very naturally happen.
This was a wake up call, a reminder that life is precious and each day should be celebrated and not taken for granted. We take so many things for granted. We’re human and it’s very easy for that to happen. Appreciating all the things we have makes life richer, and brings more peace and happiness. At the end of each day I am thankful that I’m alive and getting healthier. Everything else now seems secondary and I’ve promised myself to never let anything take away my joy. It’s normal (and healthy) to have moments of sadness, anger, stress or any other unhappy emotion but it shouldn’t take over and last for a long period of time. Otherwise, that’s time spent in that negative space instead of time spent being happy and enjoying life. I’ve also learned to not be annoyed with the things that aren’t in my control. Because I have no control over those things, being bothered isn’t gonna change them and is only affecting ME in a negative way. That one was hard for me at times haha.
None of us are perfect but I’ve made myself some promises that I will try my best to keep. One of which is gratitude for all that I have, most importantly MY LIFE.