Today is day 5 after chemo and its just been a bad day. It’s like the toxins are drowning me. I’m exhausted but can’t sleep and my body is achy. I’ve also been having heart palpitations today but at least had less today. I just want this to be over but it’s really just only begun. I’m trying to stay focused on the fact that I’m getting better and good things are to come (even if they are far away right now).
I don’t know what I’d do without my mom who has been taking care of me. I don’t think I’d be eating if it weren’t for her. Very thankful that I’m here with my parents and that my mom has the option to stay home with me if I need her.
Back to the side effects. My left arm is achy, my back is achy and sensitive. Everything hurts. My left leg feels off and the muscles in my neck feel tight. Lets not forget that I have absolutely no energy and am completely drained and fatigued. My jaw hurts all the way up to my ears. No nausea so I guess it could be worse. Feels horrible to not be able to go anywhere or do anything. I just want to feel better. Tomorrow will be better. Day 6.